I am uplifted!

I am filled with the grace of God and happy to be given another day to make the most of my time by working toward a better life for my family.

I don't know where that came from but I really am feeling some sort of sublime calm that is lifting my spirits and confidence. The smart ass side of me wants to explain this feeling away as a chemical imbalance -a monthly struggle I endure in the course of being female. But my spiritual self, the side of me that is growing and being nurtured as I grow older recognizes what's been a part of my life for, ...well, my entire life, and believes this is divinely inspired. I was singing Sinead O'Conner's Psalm 33 from her album Theology last night before I went to bed. What I love about that song (psalm) is that it comes from a singer who, 20 years ago, was considered by many, including myself, to be a skin-head, alt singer. Now she is an ordained minister in her church and sings about God. I feel that's who I've become as well.

My cousin Jen sent me a christian cd, and Kam and I were listening to it. I feel the more I put positive, useful things into my body;whether its vegetables in my stomach, uplifting music to make me dance and sing, television that isn't harmful(though I still love my trashy reality TV), the healthier I will be, the happier I will become.

Well, this much I'm sure: either I'm delusional, or divinely inspired. I'm okay with it either way.